I'M APPROVED FOR THE ARTS AND CRAFTS FAIR SO IT'S FULL STEAM AHEAD

I have the paper and paint to create lots of watercolors and the inventory to build lots of dolls and bird-nests.  Today I'm going to look into a new place to have my greeting cards printed. Everything must fit on a table and I need to think about the presentation features of the table as well as a business card.

That's six things. Piece of cake? Maybe, although those 6 things each has it's own list of innumerable items but, WHAT A CHALLENGE. 

It's good for my brain to create new pathways and push the old gambling paths to the rear to get thinner, smaller and hard to reach. I understand they will always be there and I must be aware if one should pop-up like those midway targets games.

For instance I could be driving down the highway and a billboard indicates the next exit goes to the casino. Three hundred and fifty days ago I automatically turned and went in that door. Today those signs don't even draw my attention. I'm so busy and that is a key offense against this disease. I've replaced casino time with something I like to do.

PASS OR FAIL, I AWAIT MY FATE

I submitted my art and crafts to the jury of the fair and no answer yet.  I've also listed a few watercolors for sale so it looks like my slump is over there.

I continue to be discouraged with my job. The 8 hour shifts drain me and it seems to take longer and longer for my body to snap back. That's the first problem.

The second problem is having sufficient time to paint and craft and see if I could sell enough to replace the job.

Now I'm closing to bake my wonderful husband a Crazy Cake for his birthday.

STOP LOOK AND LISTEN?

Three hundred thirty six days on the counter.   That's a lot of days I missed changing the counter while I worked 5 days in a row and now had a few days off.  I also did not list any paintings for sale in that time.  I didn't write any posts in all that time.

This is the stop part of the morning. What is going on with me? Why haven't I changed the counter, written a post or painted?  Well, I'm focused on getting ready for a juried art and craft fair. I'm stuck on getting my tax ID number. I better figure it out.

What is the look part of the morning? Hm... Yesterday was payday and last night I looked at the receipt which paid off a "Title Loan" taken out during my active gambling days. Yea! I've been making those payments every payday but was accompanied. Yesterday I went alone to make the payment, after cashing my check. This is not the first time I went alone during the last 336 days but I feel good that yesterday was one of those days.

Now for the listen portion of my morning.... My tinnitus is active this morning, I can hear that.  Street noises can be heard in the background, a motorcycle, cars, airplane, our dishwasher too. Thank you husband, for all the things you do for me and us.